Wow I can't believe reading my last blog has been 5 + years ago. It's disillusionaL and yet exhilarating to read back on my bog when I was trying. To have a voice is key; and yet the reason why I strived to express myself. I dont' know why I deny myself my voice. I am here, yet I find myself questioning. WHY? WTF? We have the tools for modern day expression to be heard, and yet why should I even question? I'm here and that's all that matters .
Tonight, one of those most important persons in my life was upset with me, and I'm not understanding why? I love her to my most fullest, and yet I dont' know why she has rejected me? I think it may be a perception of understanding, but yet I know she understands. We are related by blood, DNA, what ever you want to call it, a spirsitual, evolutional, connection. I always tell her, I wouldn't be able to validate my life without her. She is my soulmate, my 1st cousin, my first encounter with another female that I choose to grow my life with, her name is Luana. She is a most beautiful girl that has grown into a most beautiful woman that I will ever know.
I love her so much that I often confuse my daughter and her name so closely as one in the same. I love her so much. She is my cousin, and she is beautiful. The world should know. They've always known, Luana, means enjoyment, and she's exactly that. I Love You Luana.
Tonight, one of those most important persons in my life was upset with me, and I'm not understanding why? I love her to my most fullest, and yet I dont' know why she has rejected me? I think it may be a perception of understanding, but yet I know she understands. We are related by blood, DNA, what ever you want to call it, a spirsitual, evolutional, connection. I always tell her, I wouldn't be able to validate my life without her. She is my soulmate, my 1st cousin, my first encounter with another female that I choose to grow my life with, her name is Luana. She is a most beautiful girl that has grown into a most beautiful woman that I will ever know.
I love her so much that I often confuse my daughter and her name so closely as one in the same. I love her so much. She is my cousin, and she is beautiful. The world should know. They've always known, Luana, means enjoyment, and she's exactly that. I Love You Luana.
